Chaosbutterfly

I used to love to play chess. When I was a kid I played all the time with my sister and my dad on occasion. When I got older however, that changed when I had a boyfriend who was a big chess player. He was nearly at master level in it to. Rated and everything. He turned out to be a real sexist ass hole. He probably is why I have a difficult time right now enjoying a good game any more. And I want to enjoy it, I really do. However, it seems when I start a game and start getting into it, my heart starts to race and I start feeling anxious, like I am trying to perform. This has for years turned me off the game. Day before yesterday, I found a brand new never been opened chess set next to the dumpster and took it in. It was a wonderful crystal set. I set it up on the coffee table right before I had to leave for a meeting, promising my roommate that I would play him a game after I got home yesterday. So yesterday we go to play and sure enough, back comes that anxiety. I am just going to have to get through this and get over that anxiety. So… if anyone wants to play a game with me on yahoo messenger, let me know. My id is fionnghal2000. I will try not to let it get to me.